An interesting conversation came about today with someone I’ve been chopping it up with on twitter… we are working on some plans to do shoots in the near future and he may just be my very first white cock. As we discussed “my size” in comparison to the other models he has worked with or simply had relations with personally I made it VERY clear that I am comfortable with myself, and my fatness. Yes, I said it FAT! Come on… let’s just put it out there. When you use a word to describe someone bigger than normal you use the word FAT. The plus size community may send me hate mail for this but what the fuck, they hate me anyways because I’m a whore and I do porn AND my name is VULGAR, so since when do I give a fuck what a 2faced judgemental self criticising community has to say about me? I don’t. I am who I am and I love who I am so no changes from me.
Geez, it has it’s ups and it’s downs. Being from a city that is VERY much the bible belt of the south, it’s VERY difficult. Judgement comes from people who PREACH not to judge. But, as taking on the confidence of my size and years of dating outside my race (my whole life actually) AND being an overweight person – these situations and battles have helped me gain the strength to simply not give a shit. My parents know, my friends know and now most of the community knows. There is NOTHING to hide. It’s what I do, not who I am. A part of me is in my work and my “alter ego” but there is a side to me totally unconnected to my Platinum Puzzy persona. It has it’s moments. TRUST THAT. From wanting to make sure you are doing things within the law, to dealing with catty bitches in the industry who simply become haters and want to conduct themselves as such. I take on each day as a new one, learning as much as possible and trying to be as productive as possible.
Does being an amateur webmodel/actress differ from being a dvd star?
Indeed it does. Does it make me LESS of a pornstar? ABSOLUTELY not. Porn doesn’t JUST mean mainstream, it’s THE EROTIC ART OF SEX ON FILM. I said it. Do I take credit AWAY from dvd models? Not at all. However, amateur webmodels/actresses have their work cut out for them and know the struggle of the PROCESS involved in this business. From the very birth of a project to the final cut, we are usually a part of ever intricate detail in creation and delivery. From branding yourself to networking, promoting, editing… it’s definitely ALOT of work. A dvd model shows up, fucks, gets paid and goes home. Her name is made and branded by the companies she works for. An amateur model has to make the name herself. Alot of people don’t know that, and don’t recognize the hard work and our own personal money that goes into our projects. It can be VERY time consuming and hard work.